Showing posts with label truth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label truth. Show all posts

Sunday, December 7, 2014

I want you to want me….

I’m going to be bold and say exactly what lies in my heart, what I carry with me in my spirit. I’m going to go right ahead and expose myself to you, be vulnerable without shame, undress in full view of your love or judgement. I’m going to let go off all the fear that overtakes me whenever this thought, that I should open up crosses my mind.  The thing is…I want you to want me.

I want you to want me fully and wholeheartedly without a flicker of  doubt, I want you to wake up and want to be enveloped by all that is me, the essence that embodies this body and  houses my spirit. I want you to want me. 
 I want you to want me when I am   amazing and seem to have positive vibrations reverberating through me… I want you to want me when I am a mess, and I seem to doubt all the things that rang true to me yesterday…      I want you to want me

I don’t want you to need me, for the mere fact that needs are ever changing depending on the circumstances at hand, I want you to want me because wants are selfish and bold , they reveal the true nature of  man, whilst needs are considerate, somewhat safe and misleading… 

I want you to want me

I want you to want me for I will be your deep seated desire since time immemorial what you lie awake at night hoping to one day conquer, whether you were able to act on this yearning or not would be of no importance because, I would be what you have always wanted, and this will always be true to me. This desire will be rooted in your loins for that reason it will always be with you.  I want you to want me because that will be a conscious choice you make over a selection of many others; you will say to yourself she is who I want to have and to hold when I’m sure or uncertain of life’s many things.

As I say these words over and over in my head, as they continue to be engraved in my heart and spread across my entire body with every breath that I take, I have no other choice but to let you in on the secret…
I want you to want me, equally but not less than I want you.
I want you to want me

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Simple bare neccesitites...



This is something I came across on the net and I thought it was pretty neat; it’s simple yet holds such a powerful message. I am going to share with you how I relate and understand these words. The first word is TRUTH, the one thing we all claim to want in our lives, we want people to always be honest with us and tell us the truth, but when they share a truth we are not yet ready to deal with we lash out and distance ourselves. There is nothing wrong with seeking the truth, I'm all for it actually, the truth will opens doors that you didn't even know existed, it broadens your horizon and expands your mind, and if you are willing, it may even change you. Usually your reaction will determine whether you grow or remain stagnant.

The second word is FREEDOM, a basic human need I say. The freedom to be anything and everything you want to be, the freedom to be you without fear of judgment or rejection. This is another thing we claim to want as humans, we dream about it. Plan for it, and even see ourselves living it. Freedom carries with it the burden of responsibility, whilst you are busy living, one should bear in mind the rights and needs of others. You cannot be totally free until you can help free another; we are connected after all, by time, relations and situations. When you discover a truth that sets you free from whatever chain, that was binding you, it is your responsibility to offer the same courtesy to your fellow men, how they use it is entirely up to them. You would have done your bit, started the process to self-actualization. Whoever chooses to be free should realize that, with freedom come tolerance, variety and options. When each person is on their path to self-discovery, they may choose an alternative route to yours, one that you may not agree with, support or even be able to live with, and when you come to this realization, remember to practice tolerance and understanding, and stay clear of judgment and condemnation.

The third word is BELIEVE, a word that usually gets  lot of flak because it is confused with religion, I believe that every human being has to believe in something far greater than them, something that inspires them to do more and be more, something that compels them to change, touch lives and give off themselves to others. Whatever forces that drives and motivates you to be a better version of yourself, to learn to fly without wings and soar to greater heights, to be daring, fearless and confident. Believing in something is not always easy, there will be outside forces that will derail you, make you question what you thought you knew, and fill your mind with worry, anxiety and doubt. Be prepared to fight tooth and nail for what you believe in, for you will be taken to task. When your mind is right and you have your ducks in a row, whatever problem you might come up against you will be able to tackle head on and come out victorious.

The fourth word is CHILL, take a breather, relax and just appreciate each moment. With the struggles and hassles of everyday life and trying to survive, taking time out to smell the roses is a luxury most cannot afford. Life will have you in a tail spin trying to make the ends meet, that everything else in between is deemed unnecessary and self-indulgent, but it is good for your soul that every now and then you take time out to just be, to get lost in your world and discover yourself or work on yourself. To take in all that nature has to offer and find your place in it, for the body to perform all the duties, the world expects of it, the soul and mind have to find peace. You have to block out the noise and just be. Recharge and refuel, so you may be able to meet your obligations and life's duties.

The fifth word is DREAM, we hear this all the time, never stop dreaming and believing in yourself and your goals, if you work at something long and hard enough, eventually it will pen out. Sometimes you might have to go back to the drawing boards and rework your dream, but you should never give up. I know it’s easier said than done right, I mean there is only so much rejection a person can take but I have learned that if you don't view it as rejection, but failure of others to envision what you do, then you won’t give up on yourself or your dreams. There will always be naysayers but if you nurture what is most important to you, you will be able to focus on that and block out the noise of everything else that doesn't serve you or your purpose. Daydream, see it in your mind’s eye, then bring it to life, only you hold the key to that.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Trying to escape...


Very few things in life make sense, and the ones that don’t usually stay with us longer than they should. As they linger on in our hearts and minds they bring forth the innermost feelings we go out of our way to hide from the world but most importantly ourselves. The hardest thing in the world is being confronted with a truth you thought ceased to exist or affected you no more; the realization of it alone is enough to have you riddled with fear. I have come to realize and understand that every person has their own truth to live, and no matter how hard you try to avoid it or masquerade it with feelings of indifference it will always be there waiting for you to face it and own up to it someday.

As humans we are flawed and fallible and at the best of times the biggest cowards walking the earth, we go out of our way to find mood shifters that will have us in a stupor if that meant having to go another day without facing ourselves, our truth, our reality. I won’t pretend to be the biggest fan of reality, in fact there are times I have felt like checking out and just exiting and letting this life thing happen to me and not try and fight back, But if I was to put everything in perspective I really don’t want to escape anything. I want to go through life, face it and know that I have overcome something’s that I thought will be walls that will prevent me from growing but instead turned out to be bumps along the way. Reality is that smack on the face you receive when you think life is going to embrace with you with a hug and a kiss, painful as it may be it heals eventually and all that you are left with is the memory of all that happened to you.The thing with memories is that they soon fade they don’t linger on for decades unless if they are triggered by something, but when that happens  the thoughts aren’t usually as painful as the event was once upon a time.One has somehow healed, accepted and simply carried on with life.

I guess it’s true when they say it’s not really about what happens to you but rather how you respond to it, one’s attitude is key in determining whether you sink or swim because at the end of the day everything happens to everyone...as humans we just like to think that somehow God/ the universe or whatever force is out there is picking on us, we really not that special. I suppose the real question is how does one go on, how do you tackle everyday realities that leave many paralyzed with fear, dismay and low morale and still have a smile on your face or at most a positive attitude? How do you look towards a future that is not really guaranteed with hope? Well I don’t really have the answer to that because truth of the matter is as people we believe and trust in different things, and what I believe in might not necessarily be what gives you comfort at night when you can’t sleep and are smothered by nightmares.

What I do know for sure is that feeling sorry for yourself doesn't get anyone anywhere,one has to have a handle on their thoughts, actions, behavior and attitude towards life that's the only way to survive. There will always be something that happens that throws you off balance or totally decapitates you, adaptation and survival is key for making it to the next day still intact, bruised but still intact. This is why it’s so important for all of us to know who we truly are, to understand our own complexities and shortcomings and be able to handle them whenever life throws us a curve ball. Nobody ever said survival was easy but running away from yourself isn’t going to help much either, it’s a futile exercise as you can never really escape yourself, you are constantly around the clock with yourself. You have to live with who and what you are, when the circus packs up and  leaves town,when the music stops and reality pats you on the back it will be YOU  right there in the mist of it all, and so will your truth asking for some quality time. That’s the thing about the truth it has lasting power and endurance, lies are the only things that have a short life span more so the ones we tell ourselves. They can only comfort us for a little while even then the truth is always there in the background waiting, however long, it will wait for its acknowledgement. Delaying it can never deny its existence!